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Jan. 21st, 2008

[Casual] Never Mr. Nice Guy

[TM] 214 - To Be Great Is To Be Misunderstood

My pops was a great man...he had power, lots of it, and he knew how to use it. He was successful, shrewd, strong, and intelligent...guy was the fuckin’ Man, man. No question about it.

But there’s no misunderstanding my pops...he was a great man? But not a good man..shit, he wasn’t even a good demon. He treated power like a weapon and the world like one great big fucking stepping stool up to something greater. He didn’t deserve to live, and the world’s a better place since he’s been dead.

Greatness ain’t always tortuous, misunderstood genius. Some men are just bastards...and some women are just bitches. They may be great...hold the fucking world in their hands, but who and what they are is crystal clear...as clear-cut as a heart attack and as unavoidable as the smell of dogshit nobody bothered to clean up.

I don’t doubt that there’s the odd off misunderstood mogul out there...mental giants, creative geniuses and shit? But more often than not, people...even great ones...simply are what they are. Call a spade a spade, shoot a cheater on sight...know an asshole when you see an asshole.

My father was one of those men. I just pray to Christ and the Old Gods I’m nothing like him.

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: AtS (OC)
Words: 221

Jan. 2nd, 2008

[Emote] The Usual Mood

[TM] 211 - Old Acquaintance

It was cliche as all fuck...but in all the clubs in all the world, she *had* to walk into his.

The shrill little scream touched his ears just before she flung herself at him...still petite and pretty as she’d ever been, and still in complete possession of the dangerous curves that had drawn him to her when they’d first dated.

And, as was her way, the moment her arms went around him, one immediately dropped low, her hand curling almost painfully tight against his ass.

“Joe, my *darling!* Gods, it’s been so long! How are you, honey?! Still single, I hope?”

“Not single, and not lookin’, Rayela.” he grunted, avoiding touching her even as he tried to figure out how to pry himself, and his butt cheek, from her grip. “Besides...last I heard, you were a vengeance demon.”

“Well, naturally,” she drawled with a smirk, moving back just enough to slide her other hand over his backside and pull him firmly against her, “but since when has that prevented a girl from having a little fun?”

Wincing, Joseph found himself looking around the busy club and wondering where the hell his guys were when he needed them. “Ray...”

“Do you remember when you shot my fiancee in the head, Joe?”

“Rayela, I--”

“Oh, I don’t fault you for it...he was a cheating bastard, and he deserved what he got...but wasn’t that lovely? Kind of...erotic, even?”

“*Ray*...”

“Killing my man just a *week* after you broke up with me? It was so--”

“Rayela, I’m engaged.” Well, it was *almost* true...

Only then did she release her deathgrip on his ass, and it was all Joseph could do not to sigh in sheer relief. “Oh...I didn’t...well, isn’t that a shame! Who’s the lucky girl?”

“No one you know.” he lied smoothly, finally reaching up to disentangle himself from her grip. “Listen, Ray, it’s been swell...but just so ya know? My brother’s in town, and he’s been talkin’ you up something fierce...”

With a smile and a squeal, Rayela turned tail and started scouring the dance floor for James Ducain...who, Joseph knew for a fact was there tonight. He watched her go with a wealth of gratitude...and a discreet drift of his hand to rub his ass tentatively.

Man, he was gonna bruise...and when Eve found out how? She wasn’t going to let him live it down.

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: AtS (OC)
Words: 418

Dec. 10th, 2007

[Emote] The Usual Mood

[TM] 208 - Four

[private]

I’m not a superstitious man...not really. But...well, let’s just say my upbringing’s a little hard to shake sometimes.

Things with me and Eve have been fucking rough as shit, and she deserves better than I can give her. But...I can’t bring myself to let her go. So I plan on *not* letting her go. Ever.

In four days, it’ll be the Feast of Syvius...Slayers’ll be busy, ‘cause some demonic clans see it as an excuse for an apocalyptic fiesta, but by the Breal calendar it’s a lucky day. Kinda like meteor showers and shooting stars and St. Patrick’s Day. Saying goes, no harm can fall to those blessed thrice in blood in the days before the Feast of Syvius.

Now that wouldn’t mean dick to me...except for the fact that I’ve been blooded three times in the last two weeks. Couple kills in the line of duty, if you dig what I mean, and a guy I helped patch up a couple days ago. Guy who works for Zeke, he’s working for me as a mole...got clipped by a shot, I slapped a bandage on it and sent him packing.

So, if I were a superstitious man? That’d mean that the Feast of Syvius is my day...nothin’ bad can happen that day.

So...if I were to propose to Eve...

You get the idea. Anyway, I got four days to decide if I’m ready or not. We’ve talked about it...sorta...and...

Fuck. I don’t know what the fuck to do.

[/private]

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: AtS (OC)
Words: 258

Nov. 30th, 2007

[On The Job] Tough Guy

[TM] 206 - What Do You Live For?

Five years of a life sentence had stripped Joseph down...it fit his world into a twenty four inch foot locker. Death Row had stripped him down even further, narrowing his identity to a white mesh laundry bag that weighed about a pound, if that... )

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: AtS (OC)
Words: 599

Nov. 15th, 2007

[Emote] Bad Day

[TM] 204 - Going Insane Quote

[private]

I killed seventeen men between the time my ma died and the time I left New York. Seventeen men. I don’t even remember their names...just how good it felt to pull the trigger or plunge that switchblade into flesh and blood.

I went a little crazy for a while...I admit it. But a deathbed speech like my mother’s will do that to a guy.

I thought enough blood could drown out her voice in my head...cursing my name. Telling me I should never have been born. I watched her suffer for years at the hands of my pops...then she tells me I’m no better than him...

The only blood I ended up drowning in was my own...the sound of it in my ears every goddamn day. It was like my own pulse was poison...I wasn’t strong enough to end my own fucking life, so I got a little trigger happy. I think I was secretly hoping someone else would have the sack and the reflexes to beat me to the pull...to do what I couldn’t.

The real craziness came when I hit LA, though...living a normal life, thinking I could keep it. That was crazy...pretending that the danger wasn’t there anymore just ‘cause I’d slipped under the radar. I had to have been temporarily insane, thinking I could just up and run, no matter how quick I am to the draw.

That’s the thing about my family, as my pops went so far to prove: you can’t hide from the Ducains.

No matter what...they always find you. And then they take away what you love most.

That part I proved...because my pops loved nothing more than to hurt people.

He don’t do that anymore...he can’t. And I made sure of that.

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Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 305

Oct. 23rd, 2007

[B&W] The Curse Of A Name

[TM] 201 - Something You Lost

Tell you what I lost...my name.

Ducain...it’s like a fucking curse or something. I try to get away from it, and I can’t. I got close...ditched it when I moved to LA, and I didn’t pick it back up, not even in prison when it could’ve protected me. Joseph Turner did fine on his own...didn’t have much fun in there, but he survived.

I liked Joseph Turner...he was a middlin’ decent guy. My father hated him...that was just a nice little bonus. Turner was close to his degree. He had a girl he was in love with...maybe even enough to marry. He had a normal life, and he had a real future.

Now, I’m Joseph Ducain again, but the name means something else. It means revenge...it means satisfaction, and it means two steps back, in big fucking neon rock ‘n roll sized letters. It means losing everything to hold onto one good thing.

Joseph Ducain has no future...he has no friends, and he has all the wealth, power, and weapons to rule a world with fear. He as everything he needs to buy, steal, and extort things like happiness and contentment.

I don’t know for sure who this Joseph Ducain is...I don’t know if I like him very much.

But I know he kept Eve Hart alive. And that makes him a man worth knowing.

If there’s anything decent left in the Ducain family name, she put it there. But it ain’t my name anymore...it never will be again, not really. And I’d move all of the Seven Hells to get my name back again.

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 275

Oct. 16th, 2007

[B&W] The Curse Of A Name

[TM] 200 - Save The Day - At Your Funeral

And at your funeral...I will sing the requiem... )

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: AtS (OC)
Words: 763

Oct. 1st, 2007

[On The Job] Tough Guy

[TM] 198 - Super Power

If I had my way? I’d swap out my powers for the ones humans have. You know...none.

At best, the abilities I have are weak, though they been getting stronger since I started using ‘em more...and since I met Eve. Used to be I could sense thoughts with a little effort...get the gist, y’know? After I met her, I could read ‘em pretty clear...bust a nut trying to send any of my own.

And I’ve always been able to steal minds...kill myself doing it, but it’s the one thing I’m really good at. Just finding that root, where every other thought rests on, and pulling it up...slipping it into my pocket like loose change. The problem with that? The soul of memory...the Breal believe that our souls are incomplete. We got ‘em, ‘cause of our human lineage, but they ain’t whole. When we take a mind, we add a piece to our soul...we make ourselves whole.

Dad always used to say I had too much human in my blood...was why I passed so well. And taking pieces of souls when I had one all my own? It’s like shoving an anvil into a Chinese takeout box already stuffed with food. There’s no room, and the food gets crushed in the meantime.

Minds are easier for me to steal these days...mainly ‘cause I think I lost a good chunk of my soul when I killed my father. It was worth it, though...all I gotta do is look at Eve to know it was worth it.

And I ain’t complaining...much. Life sucks in the mob, especially when you’re in charge and half the criminal underworld ain’t figured out the contract on your girlfriend’s life is a dud. I put the word out, but some dimensions and corners of West Hollywood? The communication’s kinda slow.

But if I didn’t have my powers, I wouldn’t be Breal...and if I wasn’t Breal? I wouldn’t be here. Me and Eve would be off on some tropical island sipping margaritas and having a lot of sex on the beach that involved absolutely no booze...and lots of absolutely no clothing. Yeah, you heard me right, baby.

Being able to eat brains and shit, it’s all well and good...but if I could take it or leave it? Trust me...I’d leave this shit on the curb, grab my girl, and ride off into the sunset or something. And I’d do it in a New York fucking Minute.

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: Angel
Words: 423

Sep. 17th, 2007

[B&W] The Curse Of A Name

[TM] 196 - One Wish

[locked from Eve]

My wish? Might kinda get me in deep with my girl, know what I mean? Not in a real bad way, but...it’s touchy stuff for her.

I wish I could go back to LA. For good.

Eve’s got issues with the place, and she don’t spend any time out there unless she absolutely has to...like for work and shit. But LA...I got some damn good memories from out there. It’s where I always wanted to go when I was growin’ up in New York, and it’s where I *did* go when I finally got the balls to leave.

California always spoke a lot of promise to me...sunny, lively, warm...wasn’t perfect, but it was everything I wanted to be: *free.* Fake as you want, real as you please...Los Angeles was this big melting pot of choice and individuality. Nobody belongs in LA...that’s why everybody belongs there. You go there, and you realize that everyone’s an outcast...everyone’s alone. And because of that? None of us are.

I was there almost a year...and I know I lived what had to be the weirdest life anyone’s ever lived. I ate tofu and pizza. I went to the beach and I studied on the sand. I even went to friggin’ Disneyland. I did what I wanted, when I wanted, and I didn’t answer to anyone but me.

In a way I kinda grew up in LA, but I also kinda got to be a kid. But ultimately, in the eleven months and some-odd weeks I was there, I discovered that The Life wasn’t in me. I was happy as a college student...I got a real charge out of the little stuff. I even started to wonder if I could just settle down one day.

My wish would be to live in LA again. Bring Eve with me...make her see the city the way I do. She lost a lot out there...went to Hell and back again, but out there...I was born again.

I wish I could have that back...be free, be me instead of the Ducain family kingpin. And I wish I could do it with my girl.

Only good thing ‘bout this new gig? If I’m mean, nasty, and bloody enough? I just might have enough power to pull it off one day.

[/locked]

Muse: Joseph Ducain
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 392

Aug. 22nd, 2007

[Emote] Bad Day

[TM] 192 - Recurring Dream

It’s the dream he’s been having since the night he did it...and every night, it goes exactly the same way.

Joseph stands in the middle of a posh hotel penthouse, the rooms around him broken and destroyed. It was a civil beginning to the evening...entering the hotel where Marketh and his sons were staying, being disarmed at the elevator and led to his father’s sitting room.

But Joseph’s temper couldn’t be contained...when the dream begins, he’s standing there again, but only barely. Echid and Beltar are on either side of him, and Marketh stands before him with Joseph’s gun pointed at his head.

“You won’t shoot me.” His father is confident and cool. His hands still have Joseph’s blood smeared across them, while Joseph’s face still bears the rest of the blood that poured from his nose after Marketh broke it.

He cocks back the hammer of his gun. “Cocky bastard...you fucking try me.”

“You’ll take my place if you do it...remember that. Besides...you fought so hard not to be a killer. If you shoot me...a killer’s all you’ll be. Think about it, Tarsus.”

He thinks...and all he sees is Eve’s smile. Eve laying dead in his arms if Marketh Ducain is allowed to live.

“I might have...if you didn’t piss me off.”

“She’s just a *girl*, Tarsus!”


The shot rings out. Joseph’s not quite aware of pulling the trigger...all he sees is red, even as both of his brothers fire and he takes a bullet to his right shoulder and left oblique, respectively.

“She’s *MY* girl!!”

He can only remember the battle cry as the dream jerks him back to wakefulness, always hot on his tongue and hazing his vision when he opens his eyes to the light of morning...the battle cry that reminds him it’s just a dream and not a nightmare.

And it’s in that realization that the nightmare truly lies...because even though Joseph has taken countless lives, he’s never done this before.

He’s never killed a man for someone else...he’s never killed a man for love.

Muse: Tarsus Joseph Ducain
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 358

Aug. 2nd, 2007

[B&W] The Curse Of A Name

[TM] 188 - Two Letters

Contents of a letter sent to Belinda Garret six months into Joe’s jail term

Mary,

I know this is a little late in coming...but I had to write you. Lord knows I don’t have anyone else to fucking write. For all I know, you may burn this and never read a word...but I’m really truly hoping you don’t.

You have to know I never meant to hurt you by leaving like I did...if I could have taken you to Calli with me, I would have...if I could have stayed with you, I would have, too. You’re all I got, Mare...you’re all I’ve ever really had next to my mom.

One of the reasons I left you...it’s because I love you. Always have. Do I love you the way you love me...maybe a little. Yeah, I know...I’ve always known you had a thing. And maybe I did too...but it’s too late now to know if it ever could have worked.

And it is too late, Mare...you don’t call, you don’t write back, you don’t ever come to see me. You’re gonna be okay...stay the fuck away from me, and my dad’ll let you out...maybe set you up in one of his legit fronts, and you can get out of there real easy. You don’t know enough to get you killed.

Keep it that way. Forget me...find a life for yourself and forget you ever knew me.

Just know I’ll never forget you. You’re the reason I got out...remember that.

Love,
Joe

* * * * *

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Dad,

Everything comes back around...everything. If you had let me go, I’d never have bothered you again. You never would have seen me, heard about me...you could have had me dead to you in a way more lasting than the grave.

But now you’ve crossed a line. You and me? We’re fucking done. You lost the right to buy and sell my life the day you had me put in prison.

I’m a dead man no matter what I do now...I know that. But that just means I have nothing to be afraid of anymore...that makes me dangerous.

And if I’m gonna die...you’re coming with me.

No love,
Joseph

[/private]

Muse: Joseph Turner
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 377

Jul. 20th, 2007

[Emote] Just Breathe

[TM] 187 - Revenge, Relief, Vindication

It’s a fact we’re all a buncha fuckin’ animals when you get right down to it...and any good animal relies on their instincts. Survival and whatnot. That said? Humans spend a fuck of a lot of time harping on revenge. Revenge is sweet, it’s a dish best served cold, living well is the best revenge...it’s what we’re all about. And if it wasn’t so damn important? We human animals wouldn’t be so fucking obsessed with it.

Being what I am, and what I used to be, I know a fair shake about revenge...it’s what makes the business function. Getting some guy for getting some other guy, getting a guy for getting you...hell, sometimes you get a guy for what he *might* do to you. It’s all about payback. Whether it’s money, favors, or lives, if you ain’t gettin’ yours? You’re nothing.

Like me, for instance. I’m all about revenge...but I’m also about vindication. I want my family dead...dad and both my brothers. The rest...I’ll take it on a case by case basis. They ain’t all shitheels, y’know? But I’m no different...I wanna do ‘em for trying to do me. And they were wrong...they were wrong, comin’ after me when all I wanted was my freedom. Their deaths will vindicate me.

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And killing my pops...yeah, it’ll be a relief. Maybe the nightmares about how he beat my ma will stop. Maybe wherever she is, she’ll think better of me for avenging her...cancer may have killed her, but Pops would’ve taken care of it if he had enough time.

But which is gonna feel better? Relief...when I don’t have to run from him anymore, or my brothers. I’m stuck with the firm, and I’m okay with that...I got debts to pay, and I think living with ‘em some days is better than dying. But running from the only real monsters I’ve ever known...

Relief is gonna be the sweetest taste of all three.

[/private]

Muse: Joseph Turner
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 335

Jul. 9th, 2007

[On The Job] Tough Guy

[TM] I'm a part-time loser...

"Know what I hate? Lawyers. So fuck me if I know why I work for 'em." Joseph grumbled as he strolled through the corridor with a tall, yellow-skinned demon with a mouth stuffed so full of fangs its jaws hung open just to accomadate them. Fortunately, the K'syla clan was telepathic...their voices were so hideous they'd been known to induce comas with a simple greeting.

//It's a hazard of the legal field...you have to put up with them.// Ted replied. The demon's name wasn't really Ted, but the sound of it was close...his real name was unpronounceable in English, or even in Breal. //I still remember the days when you could kill a guy without filling out a single form.//

"I know, right?!?" he huffed in agreement, spreading his arms. "I mean, shit, man! When I was growing up, I airholed God knows how many motherfuckers, and did I have to audit my kills? Fuck no! Anyway, this is where I stop...I gotta get a new set of Lethal Termination forms from Pinhead McDonald."

//Well, that explains where the bitchfest started.// Ted sent, patting Joseph on the shoulder. //I'll catch you next week, Turner.//

"Yeah, sure bud." Joseph sighed gruffly, stopping at Lindsey's office. After shaking hands and finishing his goodbyes, he opened the door with a scowl.

"Okay, Fuckface, let's make this quick. I need...holy Christ."

As he walked into the room, he saw Ryan Wolfe sort of drop to one knee...whether she was reaching for something or had actually fallen, he wasn't sure. In either case, the point was moot...someone had fucking run her over with a freight train or something.

Joseph had no love lost for any child of the Partners that wasn't Eve...but there were things a man did not do. Ever. Hitting a woman was one of them.

Moving across the room, Joseph dropped to a knee beside Ryan and laid a hand on her shoulder carefully. When she jerked in pain, he removed his hand and caught her opposite arm instead to keep her from swaying, or from pulling away again. "Whoah whoah whoah...c'mere and stay still, ai'ight? You never had my fucking respect, so don't sweat losing it. What the fuck happened to you?!"

Jul. 6th, 2007

[On The Job] Tough Guy

[TM] 185 - Moment Of Triumph

It came in a moment of clarity that left him shaking inside, but the moment he said the words aloud...he stopped shaking. Just like that...he wasn`t afraid anymore. )

Muse: Joseph Turner
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 499

Jun. 22nd, 2007

[Emote] Bad Day

[TM] Pain is what I am...

He knew better than to stay...he really, really did. He planned on leaving at eleven...then quarter after...then eleven thirty...

Josep propped himself up on one elbow, watching Eve sleep peacefully beside him. He wanted to stick it in his memory, just for a little while...just for the worst part of the longest day when he'd be climbing the walls and screaming.

God, he hated the solstice.

Leaning down, he buried his nose against the back of her neck and just inhaled her scent with a contented sigh. Goddamnit, he could stay here all night long...

* * * * *


He came awake to pain. Everywhere. It was everything he knew, everything he was. His vision was red with it and his skin fevered with the heat of it...and he was still in Eve's bed.

Fucking shit.

Fighting for control of himself, Joseph immediately slid away from Eve and shakily got out of bed without making any noise. Dressing was an ordeal, and making his way out of the house was slow torture...but no worse than leaving without even giving her a goodbye kiss.

He *really* needed to get over himself and kill his father already.

Home. He had to go. Get home. Ride it out...ride the bitch out. One foot in front of the other...one...two...three steps...four...

Sitting was a relief when he got to his bike, but for a moment he thought he might have a problem when his hands refused to grip the handlebars.

"Grab it...fucking grab it, you pussy!" he snarled to himself. His body finally answered, wrapping around the throttle and brake.

Kicking it into gear, he took off as quickly as he could.

And when he thought he was far enough away, he started taking back streets to get to his place...it was the only way he could scream without drawing attention.

Jun. 21st, 2007

[Casual] Kicking Back

Eve made me do it.

...okay, so I got bored. Fucking sue me.

Read more... )

Jun. 20th, 2007

[At Home] Rolling Out Of Bed

[TM] Wednesday night and...all's not well?

Joseph was starting to wonder if the brilliant legal minds at Wolfram & Hart were responsible for some of the course requirements at state universities...because he could only equate the lab he'd just finished with as Machiavellian torture.

He was only grateful he'd taken his bike to class tonight, because the cold air was doing him a world of good. As he turned the corner, he reached up to rub his eye with the heel of one hand, trying to get the facts and figures from class to stop swirling around in his brain for two seconds. Wasn't going to do any good, though...remembering this stupid shit was in his blood. He'd pass the next quiz, he was sure, but he was probably going to be quoting nuclear equations in his fucking sleep.

Instead of heading for his place, he headed for Eve's...it was a little later than he said he'd come over that night...okay, a whole fucking hour and a half later...but it was still relatively early. Seeing her would definitely help him unwind, or at the very least have something else to think about for a while.

He was two blocks away from her house when he spotted a street vendor on the corner, waving a couple of bouquets of flowers around, with more in his bucket.

Feeling inspired, Joseph pulled his bike to the left and stopped beside the vendor, reaching for his wallet.

Eve hadn't given him a key yet, but she'd told him where to find the spare. When he arrived, he plucked the key from its place taped below her right window sill and let himself in. The house was dark, but Eve's car was in the driveway...which was weird.

Rather than overreact and draw the gun he always carried and check the place out, he simply remained quiet as he moved through the house. In the living room, he spied a glass of wine left unfinished on the coffee table and some miscellaneous disarray. Walking over to touch the glass, he felt condensation still on the outside from the chilled liquid.

Frowning to himself, he stayed quiet as he headed for her bedroom, acting on the assumption...

There she was. In bed with her back to the door. He couldn't quite tell by the sound of her breathing if she was asleep or not, but for her benefit he made sure his footsteps were audible as he crossed over to her bed. She didn't move, so she was either really dozing or just playing along.

With a small smile, he took the rose he'd bought by the side of the road and quietly tugged it from its wrapping of cellophane and baby's breath. Tossing them aside for the moment, he leaned over and dangled the blossom so it swept against her cheek. He dragged the rose up to caress her forehead, then gently over each closed eyelid, trying to urge her to rouse herself.

Jun. 6th, 2007

[Casual] Kicking Back

[TM] 181 - Perfect Day

It was almost perfect...and almost was all he`d ever really wanted. )

Muse: Joseph Turner
Fandom: ANGEL (OC)
Words: 495

May. 1st, 2007

[On The Job] Mob Man

[TM] 176 - Past Scar

I got this scar on my hand...left palm, big fuckin’ X mark. Kinda looks like I laid my hand on some molten chain link or something, except the X ain’t uneven or knotted. It’s just like that...an X.

Fact is, the mark is actually ‘gebo’...Nordic rune, symbol of a gift, or sacrifice. I got it in prison...six weeks into my life sentence, new cellie knocked me out, tied me to the bunk, and fucking branded me. Turns out he was a demon hunter working for my pops.

See, here’s the story about my people: somewhere in the primordial ooze that spewed out vampires, there was a defect that evolved into a few different demon races, mine included. At least among the purebloods, my people can literally suck a brain dry if they wanna. Some races in the same genealogy suck souls, others suck alternative bodily fluids that make me wanna gag. Long story short, we’re all feeders...we take from others to sustain ourselves. Only way to hurt or kill us? A symbol of ultimate giving...sacrifice. Vamps get the cross, a death to save all souls...the Breal are Germanic in origin, so we get a fuckin’ Nordic rune.

Now if that brand had gone over my heart? I wouldn’t be tellin’ this story. That fucker who did it nailed my hand...scarred me for life with that symbol. Every equinox or solstice, the son of a bitch activates...tries to purge the taint from my blood, since those are naturally occurring days of ritual and sacrifice. Holy days, y’know? So four times a year, I drop like a ton of bricks and get sick as a dog...mostly from the blinding fucking pain of my own blood boiling in my veins.

And before you ask...yeah, I could burn the fucker off, but it wouldn’t help enough to matter. The brand was blessed...rune’s sealed into my flesh, so I’ll never be totally rid of it.

And my pops? My own father? He was counting on that. Wanted me to pay for the rest of my life for snitching...maybe for having a fucking conscience, I don’t’ know.

Suffice to say, I got daddy issues...and they include a burning desire to stick hot blessed iron to all the most delicate parts of his anatomy.

I wonder...does that make me a bad person?

Muse: Joseph Turner
Fandom: Angel (OC)
Words: 400

Apr. 20th, 2007

[At Home] Rolling Out Of Bed

[RP] Last night I can't remember, but I know that I survived...

Joseph stirred, groaning at the pain simply moving caused him. As was becoming habit, he'd fallen asleep on his side with an arm flung out across the space where Eve should have been, but this time he'd somehow gotten his other arm twisted behind him. His shoulder was killing him and the limb was dead asleep.

Rolling over onto his back, Joseph winced at the discomfort in his shoulder, as well as a variety of other aches and pains that had nothing to do with his arm and everything to do with the fact that he hadn't been able to hold down a meal in nearly twenty four hours. It was the worst part of the poison working through his system, meaning he'd spent most of the night in a place he only should have been if he'd actually had some fun: worshipping at the altar of Tidy Bowl. He barely remembered the night before, only lots of retching.

Grabbing his cell phone off the nightstand, Joseph got shakily to his feet and ambled into the bathroom, biting back a wistful wish that Eve were here to yell at him for getting nailed on the job. Annoying little brat had him missing her...and he had a feeling she might miss him. It kind of felt good.

Shuffling into the bathroom, Joseph leaned against the sink and checked his phone...he had a few voicemails. Checking his missed calls, he saw Eve's number among them and felt one corner of his mouth tug upwards...talk about ironic. Pushing the button for his speakerphone, Joseph dialed his mailbox and entered his password, setting his phone on the counter and letting his messages play as he stared at his reflection...which didn't look too good.

"JT! It's Mayac...how you doin'?"

Joseph recognized the voice of his distant cousin, Mayac Lenny Keller. The Kellers lived locally...a human branch of the Ducain family tree that ran a successful chain of hardware stores across Massachusetts. They followed the demonic traditions of the family as best they could, but were middle class, wholesome, and always welcomed Joseph like a lost son even though he saw them maybe once a year. Mayac was a troublemaking cousin that wanted to get into the life, and never stingy about keeping Joseph in the loop.

"So I just got back from New York...Grandpappy sends his love. Grampa still wants you dead."

"Not fuckin' surprised." Joseph grumbled to himself, cringing a little at his reflection. His face was ashen, with the exception of the ruptured blood vessels rimming his eyes and stretching out towards his temples, a side effect of all the puking. They seemed to make his bloodshot eyes seem even worse than they were, and Joseph could already tell he'd lost a visible amount of weight over the last few days.

"Anyway, just called to tell you Mamma wants you to come over sometime for dinner. Maybe bring that gal pal of yers...tell Ma she's your girlfriend, that'll keep her off yer back. We miss you over here, man. So...yeah, 'ats it. Call me at the shop. Later."

Joseph hit the pound button to save the message, then listened to the next one as he turned on the tap to splash water on his face, then clutch the sink when a wave of vertigo caused him to sway...he needed more sleep. And some fucking food.

"Joseph, it's Professor Harmon. I just wanted to call and let you know you had nothing to worry about...I just finished grading last week's essays and yours was one of the best I read. I know you're worried about your grade, Mr. Turner, but you're well within the 'A' grade bracket. Perfectionism is laudable, but don't stress yourself out, okay? Kyle will swing by your place with this week's assignment. Hope you're over the flu soon, and I'll see you for the exam on Wednesday."

Okay, that was enough to make him feel loads better. Reaching up to wipe his dripping face with a towel, he hit the 'save' key and waited for Eve's message to come up.

""Hey, it's me. I'm in Boston now, actually landed a few hours ago. Stopped by the office, and now I'm having lunch with Wes. I've got a flight to New York that leaves around eight. I have a meeting Friday afternoon and then I'll be staying the night in the city. Trust me, all the flying? Not exactly thrilling me at the moment. My stuff is due to arrive at the house on Sunday though. With that in mind I'm flying back Saturday, which is earlier than I planned, but I really don't need to be on the road much longer than this. Actually I'm doing favors at this point, but I figure it's all going to work out in the end. I miss you, and I'll give you a call tonight when I get into New York."

Fuck.

Freezing at the mention of her early return date, Joseph slowly let the towel slide away from his face just enough to let him see his own reflection in the mirror. Okay, so the blood rash around his eyes would be mostly cleared up by then...and he *did* feel better today, this was the first morning he hadn't started off with his head in the toilet. And maybe she wouldn't even notice he'd been sick...or try to bug him about it if she did notice.

After a moment, Joseph nodded to himself, letting the towel fall away with a ragged sigh. "Yep...you, motherfucker, are royally screwed.

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